So long since I have posted...let me see. After Bobby was Anthony. That is a funny story. He was a new manager at Subway. I am a big complainer. He tried to help. He was all like thank you for your patience...I told him it was not patience but great self control. Few more visits to Sub for dinner and we were talking. I did a 5K and stopped by after. Found out he was a runner and we exchanged numbers which of course let to texting!!!

The Fling

Ohhhhhhhhhh The fling with Bobby is over. I am just disappointed that such a good thing came to an end. I knew when I began it wouldn't last. I am 14 years older than he and he is still in college. Not want I need in my life...just what I needed at the time. The secrets, the sneaking around was great. He was fun and wanted by all the other girls at work. Younger girls! And he chose me! That makes me feel fantastic. We started by watching sherlock holmes together. I will not be able to watch that movie again with out thinking of Bobby. He kissed me at the end of it. Great kisser. That is a big thing for me because I love kissing. After that we played pool together. and then snuck back into the theater and watched Sherlock Holmes again. We made out the whole time. After that we went back to his car to listen to a song that he was telling me about. We ended up making out in his car for like an hour. It was great! I hadn't done anything like that in a long time. I was so worked up it was hard to stop. Funny thing was we were in the parking lot so long that one of the Mangers came out and got it her car and left. She was parked right next to us. Luckily she may have seen Bobby but could not have recognized me since she could only see the back of my head. We continued to sneak kisses when no one was looking. On the night of new years day Bobby came home with me after work. I was definately nervous and it didn't help that we texted about it alot. Damn the build up! It was all worth it. I enjoyed the night..more than once. He came over again on Sunday. We worked together, kissed in the theaters, texted, flirted..all under everyone's noses. This past Sunday was the last night we spent together. We had so much fun. We laughed soooooooooooooooooooooo much. After that, Monday I worked and Tuesday night he had to spend time with his parents so I visited him at work during the day. He walked me to my car and essentially said good-bye. There was little chance we would see each other again. That wasokay..I wanted mlore time...but I understood. I figured we would see each other in passing at work on Friday, his last day. I showed up and was told that he left town a day early and didn't show up to work. That made me sad...but what could i do. A couple hours into my work I get a text from him! That was great in my opinion because he didn't have to do that at all. He had already made it sound like once he was back in Mass. that this part of the world would be forgotten. But he didn't just disappear...he told me he would keep in touch and for me to stay out of trouble...ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh he was trouble. I loved it!

the new year

Well first of all Happy new year!

Went out on new years. My friend karin and I went to a place we love to frequent. It is of course a karaoke bar. She loves to sing. I suck at singing. It was a friend of her's birthday as well. Well this friend tells me the guy Diego at the table was asking her what she new about the cute girl in red. Hey I was the cute girl in red! (I am not agreeing that I am cute or whatever but I was the only one in red...it seems like black was the color of choice for the night-as always!)

Well I will continue that story but I have to get back to the one before. I have started a talk on Chris my actual ex-husband but I do not want to talk about that now. I want to continue my oh so rique encounters with the lovely little 20 college senior that has persuded me. The little movie encounter happened on Sunday night. We stayed and watched a movie and he kissed me at the end of the movie. We walked back out to our cars together where he kissed me again. this was really sweet, I tend to have a bad habit of going to far to fast and not able to back up. So this was a nice slow beginning to something I know is just a playful fling. I get a goofy smile just thinking about it. On Monday I went with a girlfriend to watch a movie and he was working. So cute! I stepped to the break room to say hi and he kissed me again. I am thinking great it wasn't just a thing yesterday...ahhhhhh it continues! We texted back and forth late into the night that night. On Tuesday I worked. He texted that he didnt know what he was going to do with himself the rest of the night. I told him if the thought of something and wanted company he could count on me. He tells me that is what he was hinting at. I told him, tell me straight out no hinting! We went out and played pool. Then back to the movies to watch (or not exactly watch) the movie again!

yeppers, like a kid again, but I didn't do these things as a kid so I guess i am making up for it now! We exited the side doors so any of the employees would not see us.

We ended up on the total opposite side from where our cars were. We were talking about music when He side that he has something he wanted me to here. So I sat in his car to listen to the song, well obviously this continued our make out session. I don't know how long we had been there but next thing we noticed was the night manager was leaving. Now remember we are both working here and we want no one to know about this. Well she may have recognized him but my back was to her so we are hoping she says nothing!! ha, ha, CRAZY!! It was funny. Wednesday we worked together for a couple hours, snuck out during our break. I am a very friendly flirty person. He pretty much ignored me...which would have been fine, but with my personality everyone would assume something is going on because we were avoiding each other. I told him just be cool, joke, laugh...etc..that is the way I act around everyone! He mellowed out a bit. He went home and texted me the rest of the night.

Thursday we were both off but it was new years eve. He decided to spend it with his family. He goes to school up north and doesn't get to visit his parents often. I went out my friend Karin as I said before. So now we are back to New Years Eve. I have this guy Diego eyeing me from across the room. I have my camera trying to take as many pics as I can. He comes up to me and says can you email me some of those. I was like sure. He says give my your phone number and I can text my email to you. I was like sure. ha! So now he has my number and texts me if it is okay to text and call me as well. See where does this come from? He was okay, handsome just not my type. (Yes I have a very specific type.)
During this I am texting Bobby and trying to pay attention to what is going on around me..singing drinking dancing drinking...etc. A wild night of fun.
So Bobby and I decide that we are both working Friday night and that we should really get together afterwards. The tension between us has built us so much at this point.

Now since I started at the beginning...and I have skipped to the end I haven't mentioned Scott. But lets just say at this point it has been 7 months since I have last had the pleasure of spending the night in someone's arms. I was so ready.

Well guys. Don't mean to leave you hanging but I have to get ready for work...Working with him tonight, see what tensions there are. Can I be more of a guy in this situation and just be cool with it? Or will my girly side show and demand attention or acknowledgemnt.

Hug and Kisses all...

Just me

Part 1 and today

I don't judge and I don't expected to be judged. I am very open minded and accepting. That is what I am looking for in friends.

Let's begin by saying that the names have not been changed. I don't really care about protecting the innocent because in my opinion they are not innocent.

I was married. For less than a year I was married to my son's father. I thought he was the love of my life. I was 19 when I met him, I didn't know what love was...not sure if I do now. I feel each one of my past relationships, not matter what happened in them made me who I am today, each one is a part of me in some way. This first one gave me my son. For seven years after we separated I had not other man in my life but my son. I took raising him as my number one priority. Now for some of these years, Chris wouldn drift back and forth into my life. I held out hope for a long time. But what I came to realize was that Chris and I have very strong chemistry...not much else. We talk now and I see him as that coward from 11 years ago and he sees me as the kid I was. We don't see each other for who we each are today. I am not sure we would like each other if we met today.

11 years...that is a long long time to have someone in your life...actually all together it is 15 years. I think back at when we met and wonder...I remember him coming back to my house after the first night we spent together...nothing happened..the cat would not let it!! lol

He came back. That is all it took for that LONG chapter of my life to begin. A chapter full of heartache and headaches. But this chapter did bring me my son.

Chris, now is with another woman. A woman that mysteriously appeared right after we split...funny business huh? Did he cheat on me...I don't know. She even tried to tell me herself that they didn't get together until he and I were separated for a while. I know for a fact that he was with me several times when he was seeing her. He always lured me with promises to return to our family. What I sucker Iwas!

At work there is a new guy working with us. I decided instantly I did not like him. He is smug and too sure of himself and worst of all he is a Minion of Raymond. Raymond is our GM and he keeps hiring people he knows. These people feel like they are superior to the rest of us even though most have worked there longer. He has been flirting...I am not sure of his age, I think he told someone he is 20!! Just a boy in my book...but cute. It is quite flattering to have him smile at me. Makes me feel like a school girl. No chance of anything happening with him, but it will make work worthwhile. We stayed and watched a movie tonight, I had my feet up on the chair and he moved them over his....I know silliness...but that is me!!!

We will see how this little fun flirtation progresses. : ) At least it is good for my self esteem.

Hugs and Kisses all....
Just me!

First times

We all have first times. The first time we saw a horror movie. I remember that. My aunt was babysitting us and was going to let us watch the first freddy movie....we only saw about fifteen minutes of it and I had nightmares for two years...now I love horror movies.
Anyways, it is my first time to blog. I don't know if anyone one finds what I say interesting or if it has been done a hundred times..but I have man problems and I need help. Okay one of my favorite shows is tough love and maybe that is what i need to tell me what the hell I have been doing wrong. Ummmm, but I am not willing to go on national tv to figure it out. I am a reader and I have read several books on the subject. Maybe that is my first problem, I look at it with head (brain) point of view and it is my heart we are talking about.

Well I am going to tell you my story...piece by piece. If you find it interesting or it you have an opinion, let me know. I will be as honest and as candid as possible. Tell me what you think; jellybean_brock@yahoo.com.

The first question..are the books right. I have read He is just not into you amoungst others...Left brain or right brain. Should I follow these rules to the letter? Will it work, I have also read " get a man to marry you in three months. Should I follow this one and see if in three months I am married....

Let me tell you about me. I am a single mom, I am 34 years old. Is there still someone out there for me? My son is 13 years old at this point. I have a career, my car is paid off and I rent an apartment. I make okay money. I am not needy (this is a crucial point since one guy in my life says I don't NEED him, he likes needy girls). What the hell I am too good? whatever!

Okay so if you wish to follow I will tell you my story.

Hugs and kisses all....

Just Me!